The Finster Family's Beautiful Mourning
The 'Rugrats' episode "Mother's Day" is a gorgeous portrayal of sharing the grief of early childhood maternal loss.
"Though I Must Leave You Behind Me" On my eighteenth birthday, my father gave me the letters. My mother had written me five, one to mark each of my birthdays for which she was alive, from my birth to age four. Had she lived ten days more, there would have been six. I didn't read those letters until two years later. By that time I was in therapy, attempting to undo—or at least contextualize, since we can't ever entirely escape the effects of our traumas—the lonely and bitter years I had spent stewing in self-loathing, obsessively replaying the moment of her death in my head both by day and in my dreams. I still didn't feel ready to read them, but it had become clear to me that by avoiding them, as I had avoided reading her other writing and looking through photo albums and asking my f
May 08 2021
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